Indigo

“The best way to have good ideas is to have lots of ideas…and then throw the bad ones away.” 

~Linus Paulin

Involving yourself into psychology has it’s own benefits, a person ends up finding answers to questions they didn’t even know were questions in the first place. This blog was supposed to come a lot sooner, with no idea of any delay. The topic and the content kept on going around in my head for a long time but the push came a little later.

This idea emerged when I was out for a casual outing with my family for a swim, swimming gives a lot of free time for the head to make up stories, find solutions to problems and think about material that needs a lot of mental peace, Swimming offers that mental peace which I didn’t realize until that day.

I question, a lot. This is my question.

Why do some people have to be involved in order to make things right? For things to seem right? For things to stay mended? Act as if it was a missing piece even when it wasn’t?

Life is a maze that nobody will ever know how to solve because what builds up this maze is relationships, something people build on their own to survive and leave it on others to stabilize. A relationship between two people is never between two people, there is always a connecting source that evolves at the correct time. The backbone of some relationships is a third person.

When you first venture into it, the need is to be around, to be accepted with all the flaws, to be able to open yourself to experiences you could only have with that person and you get it, all of it and much more. It builds up, you explore it, find things you don’t think you need and dispose it. You question yourself, your choices, their choices, their attributes. You want to change them but not yourself. You think you’ve done enough, given enough, but have you?You think you’re keeping your happiness second, but are you? If seeking what you want, makes you happy then why can’t that happiness be out in the open? Is being selfless the only pardon to your actions because you think you suffered for long and you deserve to be happy for a while?

To be the mid way of a relationship is to have the power to know what love can do, if not between two people, it stays intact because the third one won’t give up. To be the mid way is to know, that’s the only way this love will stay. To be the mid way is to feel the love that wasn’t for you but everything you wished for, from the shooting star.

I look at these two beautiful, smiling faces and ask myself, if the only way they could be this happy is when I’m around, can I be selfless enough to hang around for them?

It’s half past six on a winter evening, the color of the pool complements my thoughts. It’s dark, it’s beautiful. It’s a mid way to my reality and mind’s eye. It’s Indigo.

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