Ups And Down: A Necessary Evil

Ups And Down: A Necessary Evil

“When you dream something big, desirable and the dream is about to come true but suddenly smashes into fragments, the pain is

unbearable.”

My Life was going smooth I was overwhelmed. I was going fine in my work and felt confident in everything. On 4^th May while returning from a month vacation, I rejoined my institution. As I entered the institution I was Flabbergasted. A new girl in Blue dress was sitting in the first row. Fabulously dressed, well in complexion and the long glittering hairs melted my heart. She looked familiar but I couldn’t recognize her. I took my backbench seat and wondered whom she must have been. I imagined to ask her, but did not dare…! The Professor entered and asked the girl to introduce her. “She stood up”, “Walk to the Platform” and “Turned Around”. I did not need any introduction. Her So Glamorous face spoke out everything. It was none other than Ivy.

I was startled, what a surprise. She joined our institution Today itself and I was amazed. We used to talk earlier only on Social Networking Sites and met only a few times. Now she joined our institution! I could see her every Alternate Days!!! :D

As Days Passed, gradually having mouthful conversation with her, the smile she gave and her sweet melodious Voice developed and attraction for me. I started to like her. Day and night, I used to Dream about her. Our intimacy increased when we both were made partners for a Project. On the Final day we gave our best, still unluckily we didn’t any prize. I thought I may have lost the battle but I will try my best to win the War! Little did I know? I decided to propose her.

My plan was well set; after three days by weekend, I will propose her to be my Girlfriend. However, I decided to investigate until then, not because I didn’t have faith on her or doubted her but wanted to know more and wanna surprise her with my knowledge. Again, Life took a twist. It seemed as if dusk has arrived for my life. What I saw was astonishing, “She stopped near the Park, a guy who was waiting for her, he stood up smiled at her and then they hugged each other and then departed from the place holding each other. I was shattered, split and deprived of happiness. It was again! Once again, I felt I must not survive.

Nevertheless, it wasn’t her fault even. I had never had conversation with her about love or if she had any Boyfriend. I received the indication in a wrong way. I was worth suffering. I could recall, she maintained a quick distance and for her I was just a friend. She is not the one to be blamed.

Henceforth I decided I would not tell a word about this, never again I ‘d fall in Love. I would keep the friendship, but with some limitations and keep the conversation short. I came back to work space and now I will try my best to recover the top position!!

Break-up Blessing in Disguise

Break-up Blessing in Disguise

Life after breakup is just like a hell when you are truly committed to that someone who left you for somebody else. Many a times we feel like giving up, quit our lives and get relieved from pain. The ache what we feel which comes from inside the heart is unbearble. The devastation,destruction,demolition,ruin life cannot be judged. It was like a heart attack when she finally left me. Still we try to live... Live with a hope that time heals.
This was the reason exactly which held me of living.

At Every point of my life when I gave up.. My inner instincts would force me to live. Live with a believ that every things gonna be alright

... About 4-5 months later when I could partially remove her impact from my mind.. I started to live my life again. I knew she would never come back in my life and  gradually I was filled with energy, vitality, embeverence. I had my companions with me.. Helping me at every Stage..! Giving their best to make me move on. Gradually I started, 8 Months had passed nd Now I was able to live without thinking about her. The Break-up came with new opportunities..

I exelled in my work! I was competing myself..! The only thing I thought was my work. The work staff was too impressed with me. But, One day... While buying the food stuff I saw someone. A Girl helping herself to get a pack of Lays kept in the Top shelf. Abruptly She reminded me of someone... The chaarming hairs, her voice. It was so AmaZing I thought I found my Princess back.. But Life was cursed for me :( As she turned towards me, It was not My Princess but someone else. And I knew her.. She was none other than Ivy!

My one of the best High school Friend! I cudn't believe my Eyes.. She turned so Gorgeous in just a few years.. She recognized me. We had a long conversation nd numbers were exchanged! :D That day.. Jaz After I completed my work, My cell vibrated. It was a text from Ivy. And then long conversation begun in Whatsapp! Late nights chats.. Morning wishes nd then again hours of chat..! That weekend I discussed everything wid my buddy and he suggested Its time for me to make my First Move. But I was afraid.. I still wanted Her. There was a contraction I can't  wait for someone all of My Life and thus I decided to move on!

I decided to Improve Myself..! I worked on conversational skills nd physique.. I started being social nd gained as much info about Ivy as I can between the few years..! I checked all her Pics and admired them whole day. I Started getting into

her Friend circle for better Bonding. She is really sweet. Even sugar taste Bitter if I'm with her. Eventually I thanked God, He knows whats good for us.. Its just about being Patient..! I devloped a Crush on her. Now I realised that Crying over my ex was vain. I got sumone much Better than Princess.

Coping with a Break-up.

“Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear. “''Where there's Love there's Life''

These all statements meant a lott to Me.. But soon these words lost all its significance since I had my break-up...
Actually,
“Men always want to be a woman’s first love. Women have a more subtle instinct: What they like is to be a man’s last romance.”

I wont blame her for the break-up.. I would admit all my mistake.. Nd would go to any extent to get her.. She was the only thing what I wanted. My relationship started from a mild friendship during classes to a crush and then she accepted my proposal and I was proud to call her my Girlfriend. I referred to her as my ''Princess''. She was really cute, beautiful,pretty,caring and much more. It would take more than a day to describe her beauty and heart. She was very helpful kind and good scholar too! 
Our relationship was going smooth, yet some mere problems came which we solved very easily holding each others hand.. Supporting each other. As the relationship grew older, I thought it would be more stiff... But my assumption was contradicted.
Day by day she became more arrogant. Fighting everyday over silly topics. Becoming irritated every now and then.. I tried my best to save this relationship. I always used to convince her. For a day or two she behaved properly and then again the same thing continued... At times I let her alone to understand things from my view but it seemed to be vain. And then same thing happened one day. She became angry for I couldn't give my time. I was irritated, for I could not give all my time to her and thus this time I didn't attempt to convince her. After 2-3 days I tried to contact her but she was still angry and disagreed to meet. After about a week she called me. I was overwhelmed and happy... I picked up the phone. 
Voice came- *hello*.
*Hello Princess, I missed you sooo much. I'm glad you missed me too*.
*hmm. I want space.....space in my life, I'm sorry I cant spend my life with you further.*
*But baby you loved me and I too  and those promises.. Time spent together...........*
#Phone_cut.

I was devastated.. Destroyed.. My Future was blurred. I don't blame her for the breakup. I will admit all the mistakes, done or not done by me. I still remember those time spent with her. I still miss her. Its 4-5 months after my breakup, but still couples going together remind me of past. I tried my best to move on.. I wont say I achieved 100% but I can say that its more than 60%. I loved her, but she is gone. It can't be undone. I have to cope with the bitter truth. Though I spent all total more than 134 days or 3216 minutes or 11577600 seconds with her. Still I  had no other option. I was left alone. I came to know that it was just because she loved someone else, she had another affair. Once I thought to pull that guy down on a wrestling floor, but I dumped this Idea because it wont help me to bring her back. Maybe,She would surely be committed to someone else. I didn't like to talk with anybody but now I feel that I'm amazing I managed such harsh situation. Now I'll live my life with vitality and enjoy evry moment. Life is not about just Love its about you.
And in my view even in  relationship live your life as yourself. Do what you like and one thing be Honest.

It was like I'm seeing the worst dream ever. Shifting to a place I never heard of before though I had experienced 9 yrs of my life,but didn't even knew if its a city or state.

''Cuttack'' that's what its spelled. My 4th grade G.K books never showed such name. Leaving behind my friends and relatives, to a strange place was like a dare game. Everything was new, the Language, the People, the Place. Nothing familiar. And just after  week was my school admission. The Cambridge High School ''yeah, the name sounds well, must be like my previous missionary school''. Thats what I thought. 13th April. I still remember my First day. I was nervous, alot. As I entered into the classroom, I was asked for a short intro. I started.. With my name, then place where I belonged to.. Ranchii... BAM!! All burst into laughter... :/ Ranchii I said? Whats wrong? Little did I knew....

I was told to sit beside a Girl. WHAT!! I belonged to a boys school since my childhood and my first day to new school beside a Girl. My nervousness touched new Hieghts. She gave a good introduction Sobre, Sweet voice and a Pretty smile... This is what started our Friendship...
Whole day she helped a lott. Showed me the school. Introduced me to new buddies.. She was really funny, helpfull and Master in Bunking and Buttering :p She was one of a kind... Days passed. Sitting arrangement were changed.. Still we were good Friends.. Her nature was perfect.. And she was the clown of the class whenever her Father, Our English teacher, Mr. Pattrick Sir came to our class..!!
Time went onn... I faced problems in Oriya subject. Even her help couldn't save me from this brutal language and my parents decided to change the school. I was sooo attached with all my friends.. Once again, my friends were left behind... For a few months I missed them all too much. But I had to compromise and assure myself. I had no way to contact with any of my buddies. Afrer pssing out my 10th Boards.... I saw a name on my FB screen. ''Priyanka Tresa'' and  the pictures everything seemed to be much reviving. Thats when I came to her contact once again. Thanx to Mark Zucerburg..!! I was Amazed..!! It was her.. 1 And a half year of search worked.. And thankfully she remembered me.. She was looking out for me too... That is my best memory. It was a real joy.. And my happiness reached to zenith!! I was like a blessed person. And till now she z with me.
-> You're the best Example of friendship, True living and still holding my hands.. Problems came and passed like a wind. And together we stood, Holding each other's hand. I cant say if I was there in her worse time... Lucky to have a friend like you.. Keep the spark alive..!!

Ps- Shez really craZzyy..!! :p